I miss you mummy. I need you,
I hate Kat for doing this, I hate Dad for being an insensitive bastard and I love James and he's the only one available to shout at....I feel like a bitch and I wish you could make it better.
Please come back.
Love you millions
xxxxxx
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Thursday, October 21, 2010
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Hello
Morning mum,
Hope your alright, wish you were here for a natter!! Also, I could really do with a new winter coat and I can't find a good one, I know you would come shopping with me and choose me something I wouldn't even have tried on!! Lol, you always had the best taste!!
Feeling a bit down today, seems like I'm back in the playground with this stupid Kat shit :( I thought she was better than listening to gossip and bullshit without talking to me :( ahh well, better off without her I guess, she has deleted me and James off facebook, and amanda, god knows what they have done :(
Not seen or spoke to dad, he's being a little bit weird though, he's told PJ that I got weird about money, I only meant it as a joke but heyho!!!
Everything seems to be collapsing around me since you left, I guess I need to take more responsibility. I need to learn to shut my mouth :(
Lol, you could have told me that!!!
Love you a million and more :)
Xxxxxxx
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Hope your alright, wish you were here for a natter!! Also, I could really do with a new winter coat and I can't find a good one, I know you would come shopping with me and choose me something I wouldn't even have tried on!! Lol, you always had the best taste!!
Feeling a bit down today, seems like I'm back in the playground with this stupid Kat shit :( I thought she was better than listening to gossip and bullshit without talking to me :( ahh well, better off without her I guess, she has deleted me and James off facebook, and amanda, god knows what they have done :(
Not seen or spoke to dad, he's being a little bit weird though, he's told PJ that I got weird about money, I only meant it as a joke but heyho!!!
Everything seems to be collapsing around me since you left, I guess I need to take more responsibility. I need to learn to shut my mouth :(
Lol, you could have told me that!!!
Love you a million and more :)
Xxxxxxx
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Location:Bed :)
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Hello
Morning mum,
Hope your ok.
Had one of those days when I really wish you weren't dead yesterday!! Not that I don't wish that every day but I just really wanted to talk to you. Had a really random day at work, a volunteer approached me and disclosed some weird stuff and asked for my help. Wish I could have asked you what you would have done. I spoke to Ali and she agreed that I have done the right thing but I would still have loved to check with you.
Also Kat is being really weird still, she put on FB that "the more I find out about other people the more I can only rely on my hubby and family" or something along those lines. It's probably not even about me but it was a bit of a coincidence that she put that up the day after Amandas birthday party. God even writing about it sounds pathetic, she's really irritating me, I went to Phils birthday BBQ and when I got there she just stopped talking to Rick, not me or anyone else, just Rick. I really don't want to be responsible for her not talking to Rick. And she's just pissing me off, she said that the only reason she has been a shit friend when you died was because I was drinking too much, the last 2 or 3 times I have seen her she has been properly off her face, screaming and acting like a drunken idiot!! I don't get it, I understand that what I said to Paul, was out of order but I have apologised and to be fair I wouldn't have said anything if he wasn't moaning about how boring she was and how he wished she was more interesting or that he was planning to hide money to sound on alcohol and gambling!!!! Grrrr!!!!!!
I would just love to have a proper chat with you about this, I guess I know what you would say, that I have tried and she's not worth my time, I cant force her to be my friend so I should just not bother. And I know your right,but I care about her and she is bugging me because I don't actually know why she is being SUCH a bitch... James reckons she has been looking for an excuse to not be my friend for ages and now she has found it so leave her to it. I just think its weird how she is giving up on friends she has known for 8 years for Paul, it worries me quite a bit. But your right,she's not worth me worrying this much or being so bothered!!
Also, Aliyah has gone to Cyprus, I miss her already ;( she was so cute before she left, I took her to Grans to say bye and Gran looked awful but Aliyah always makes her feel better!! I think it's going to be really weird now she isn't here :( I think the world of her, I am so worried she wont remember me :( we bought them a webcam so we can talk over the Internet, I hope they use it :)
Miss you mum, wish I could hear your opinions for real.
Love you millions and more!!!
:)
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Hope your ok.
Had one of those days when I really wish you weren't dead yesterday!! Not that I don't wish that every day but I just really wanted to talk to you. Had a really random day at work, a volunteer approached me and disclosed some weird stuff and asked for my help. Wish I could have asked you what you would have done. I spoke to Ali and she agreed that I have done the right thing but I would still have loved to check with you.
Also Kat is being really weird still, she put on FB that "the more I find out about other people the more I can only rely on my hubby and family" or something along those lines. It's probably not even about me but it was a bit of a coincidence that she put that up the day after Amandas birthday party. God even writing about it sounds pathetic, she's really irritating me, I went to Phils birthday BBQ and when I got there she just stopped talking to Rick, not me or anyone else, just Rick. I really don't want to be responsible for her not talking to Rick. And she's just pissing me off, she said that the only reason she has been a shit friend when you died was because I was drinking too much, the last 2 or 3 times I have seen her she has been properly off her face, screaming and acting like a drunken idiot!! I don't get it, I understand that what I said to Paul, was out of order but I have apologised and to be fair I wouldn't have said anything if he wasn't moaning about how boring she was and how he wished she was more interesting or that he was planning to hide money to sound on alcohol and gambling!!!! Grrrr!!!!!!
I would just love to have a proper chat with you about this, I guess I know what you would say, that I have tried and she's not worth my time, I cant force her to be my friend so I should just not bother. And I know your right,but I care about her and she is bugging me because I don't actually know why she is being SUCH a bitch... James reckons she has been looking for an excuse to not be my friend for ages and now she has found it so leave her to it. I just think its weird how she is giving up on friends she has known for 8 years for Paul, it worries me quite a bit. But your right,she's not worth me worrying this much or being so bothered!!
Also, Aliyah has gone to Cyprus, I miss her already ;( she was so cute before she left, I took her to Grans to say bye and Gran looked awful but Aliyah always makes her feel better!! I think it's going to be really weird now she isn't here :( I think the world of her, I am so worried she wont remember me :( we bought them a webcam so we can talk over the Internet, I hope they use it :)
Miss you mum, wish I could hear your opinions for real.
Love you millions and more!!!
:)
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Location:Bed
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Going to London....
Morning mum,
Thanks for the coffee :) dad found some free star bucks you had been sent so I had one this morning, glad you can still buy me coffee even when your not here.
On the way to London at the moment, just going for a 2 hour meeting and then coming straight back, bit of waste of money if you ask me but I'm having fun really :) got gossip girl on my iPad and got a brew so it's all good, and I got a seat!! Makes me laugh remembering when we went to London and nearly didn't get back!! Hehe, I'm sorry about that trip mum, it just wasn't quite as good as it could have been, we should have gone on your walks, I wish we had. I'm so, so sorry. I realise now how much effort you put into me and how unappreciative I was.
Went to a gig on Tuesday night with Jordan, Riks boyfriend, he was soooo exciting and they were actually really good. Saw Vicky at the gig too, she's awesome :)
I love you millions
:)
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Thanks for the coffee :) dad found some free star bucks you had been sent so I had one this morning, glad you can still buy me coffee even when your not here.
On the way to London at the moment, just going for a 2 hour meeting and then coming straight back, bit of waste of money if you ask me but I'm having fun really :) got gossip girl on my iPad and got a brew so it's all good, and I got a seat!! Makes me laugh remembering when we went to London and nearly didn't get back!! Hehe, I'm sorry about that trip mum, it just wasn't quite as good as it could have been, we should have gone on your walks, I wish we had. I'm so, so sorry. I realise now how much effort you put into me and how unappreciative I was.
Went to a gig on Tuesday night with Jordan, Riks boyfriend, he was soooo exciting and they were actually really good. Saw Vicky at the gig too, she's awesome :)
I love you millions
:)
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Location:A train, near wigan
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